You never know when you fall in love. Because as they say, love happens in the most unexpected places and at unexpected times. I'm pretty sure you're familiar with the jokes. Well... that's not wrong. But I didn't believe it until 5 months ago. Because the stories that happened around me never gave me the chance to believe in true love. At first, people would act like they can't live without the person they love and after a few months they will hate them more than anyone else in the world. How can you hate the same person you loved so much? This isn't love... at least not in my world. Say no to plagiarism. Get a tailor-made essay on "Why Violent Video Games Shouldn't Be Banned"? Get an Original EssayWhat I think about love is caring, being willing to be there for that person no matter what, trying to spend as much time as possible hanging out, talking or texting like you never want it to end forever , sparks feel or your heart starts beating faster when that person looks at you or stands in front of you and you are speechless or sometimes you can't even look at that person because you are too shy to do so. Small, simple but precious things. But at the same time keep in mind what most of us fail to do is not expect the same in return from the person you are in love with. Because that's where love fails but never ends. So what made me believe in love? I would more or less describe myself as a tomboy and I'm sure that's what everyone thinks of me. Thin, tenacious, fearless. No one can think that I fall in love with a boy. I couldn't either. I have never shown interest in these things. And I still act like one and people think the same of me. Except for a few, like some of my best friends. Believe me, they still find it very hard to believe. I remember it was January of the year 2016 when I saw it for the first time. Or maybe I had done it before, but it was the first time I'd watched it. And no..!! I'm not saying his name. Let's call him Mr. Kind here. So Mr. Kind along with his team was on the field practicing cricket. And I was there too for some reason. My eyes caught Mr. Kind, who looked so much like a professional cricketer. It was definitely cricket that attracted me to him in the first place and I wanted to know more about his game. Believe me, I just wanted to get to know him as a player in the sport I love. I stood there watching him train until it was over. When my best friend was finished with his study and we were ready to go home, I asked him about Mr. Kind on the way. He told me his name and the next thing I knew I wanted to know more about him. After that day, several days of the same thing passed, I watched him play but I hadn't learned anything new about him. I'll be honest...By the time the cricket season was over, I had completely forgotten about him. One of the funniest things that happened and I didn't even realize that I once texted him later that year in November about an industrial training. That was the first conversation we had, exactly a two message conversation and that was it. It's been a year and we still haven't talked. Neither by texting nor face to face. I simply watched it from afar. And at the same time, I started to develop a crush on him. But it was just a crush. This has happened to me so many times before. Nothing serious. I totally agreed. It was September 2017 when I decided to start playing cricket again. I used to do it before... a long time ago, but this time I was looking for better clubs. I thought I'd ask Mr. Kind because he probably has some thoughts about it and it was the perfect excuse andshameless to start a conversion with him. The conversation went really well. He was a friendly person. It still is. One of his messages that I remember and will never forget was...'Your desire and my hard work will definitely make that day come soon.' He answered me like this after I told him that one day he will definitely play for the national team. This message made me feel really special. Even though I know he didn't mean it that way, but from my point of view it is. Since that day there hasn't been a single day that my eyes haven't searched for him every time I was in college. And surprisingly there wasn't a single day I didn't see him... even just once. Is it fate? I really don't know because it was very unusual for a crush. It had never happened before. But yes... we still haven't exchanged a single word face to face. The first time we said anything to each other… well him, not me, was during my cricket practice. I was batting and he came from behind and said 'Bat de!!'. I simply handed over my bat so he could ground the stumps and he handed it back to me. As always, I didn't say a single word. This made me regret it for a long time. There were few times when me and my friends would talk about him... and they would keep insisting that I agree with the fact that I just don't have a crush on him, I'm in love with him. I won't believe it because I thought I knew I wasn't until the day I realized I was in love with him the whole time. There were little things they pointed out along the way, but I was the one who didn't understand it. The day I realized this was the day of my cricket match where he was appointed leg umpire. Mr Kind... one day if you read this, even though I know it wasn't your fault and I don't blame you at all, but that cricket match was the most distracting game of my life. I've never felt so nervous before. But what happened that day, the feelings made me question whether what I feel for him is something more than just a crush...? I'm usually very open about my feelings, but this time the feelings were different. I couldn't tell people what I was dealing with. Not even my closest friends. Even if I had, they couldn't have helped me. The only way was to be able to talk to Mr. Kind. I didn't have to wait much longer to finally talk to him. Shortly after a month we both went to a place dedicated to organizing the farewell of our respective departments. Obviously accompanied by two other friends. That day was the best day of my life. Like: why wouldn't it be? I talked to him for the first time and then spent about 4 hours with him. I had a lot of fun, had some new experiences and lots of laughs. And I didn't want it to end. I guess I got my wish. Why did we get back so late. I can't write about all the crazy things that happened. But that day I understood what it means to be in love and what it feels like to spend time with that person even for just a few hours. I always wanted to confess my feelings to him but in my mind there was always this thought of what would happen if he never wanted to talk to me again. We still have a year of university life left, how could I face it? I didn't want the friendship to end. So I thought maybe it would be best to confess after we passed out. On the same site it also struck me that if I did this, I would seem to care less, which I don't. So telling him before you pass out will be a good thing. The campus driveway was approaching and I knew it was busy and I didn't want to worry him. It would probably be best if I told him once.
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