He always respected us, but felt like he fit in with the circus people. It's not a good place for a child to grow up because they travel everywhere and you couldn't get a good education." Grandfather stopped for a moment to breathe. “The circus your mother is part of is a little different from the others and it is believed that those who are part of it are all some kind of gang. Your mother obviously always denies it, but we can't be sure she's telling the truth. This seemed to upset him a little as he spoke. Grandma Judy intervened. “She thought if she came by a couple of times a year it would just confuse you, so she decided it was best to stay away.” This made me a little sad but I wasn't angry, it made sense. I just wish he had chosen to live a different lifestyle so he could have a mom, someone to be close to. I told my grandmother and grandfather that I understood why he did what he did. “You guys know I love you and appreciate everything you do for me, I don't take anything for granted. I just wish you had told me the real reason