With something like divorce, however, you are left with no "family". Suddenly, it's about each individual separately; there is no longer any bond as a family unit. Each member is facing their own struggles, following this change. They simply become too weak to even comfort themselves, let alone anyone else. Disbelief still courses through my veins, and sometimes I still wish that one day they would wake up and get back together, so that everything could go back to normal, feel comfortable again. My body hurts when I feel pulled in two distinct directions; I feel worried, lost and broken. Divorce left me questioning everything I thought I knew about trust, about life, about love. Everything I thought I knew until the divorce was apparently wrong, I thought. I started questioning everything I knew. I guess my parents weren't so happy? I guess they weren't best friends? I guess "till death do us part" was a lie? Or did something simply happen in their minds, like a change, that caused them to no longer want to be together? I felt stupidly upset. Even in shock. I still couldn't believe it